Aug 21 Journal

E has been struggling with depression these days. I can tell she is not in a good mood and very irritated. She repetitively mentioned she has no motivation to do anything - house chores, work, etc. And she feels not useful about herself. There isn’t anything I could think of to make her feel better; neither does she know. I tried to send her a couple funny reels everyday. I doubt they would help. I used to be in that state. And honestly speaking, it was very hard to anyone/anything to even walk into my mind. The door was simply shut and denied entry to anyone.

E said she was looking forward to the road trip. I don’t share the same excitement - we have been to crater lake and redwood national park before. It’s still a good trip though to take a pause in daily life and to get away for a few days.